MERRY CHRISTMAS

by DarkRedRose

Oh, Jenny don't be hasty

It's.. exasperating, frustrating, maddening almost when petty remarks are sent your way regarding the littlest things that barely mattered in the first place. Were the meanings behind those words completely overlooked or simply ignored? I find it hard to believe that people really are that oblivious. At moments like this, pouring ones heart and soul into something does indeed seem pointless..

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Do you remember that card you gave me?

"I'm sorry", it said. "For leaving you behind & for not being by your side.."

Reading it today made me smile. Because you're doing it again.

But.. you don't know that do you? Maybe that's why I'm always waiting.

Waiting, waiting, waiting

For pigs to fly, for cats to talk, for stones to sprout,

For you to change

You will. I know you will. But what I do wonder though, is how long more can I wait?

Don't you?

"If you know it matters to you, don't give up", I was told. The problem is, I don't think I know anymore.

I have concluded though, that for now, I'll be waiting a little more.

Sheer stupidity? Perhaps. Though it makes little sense to throw away something you've held on to for almost 8 years.

I suppose, only time will tell.

postcard from PostSecret.com

And so it is

I'll miss..

My dear classmates,

My beloved teachers,

My extraordinary friends,

My darling juniors,

I'll miss, a hundred and one things about school and its magnificent people.

And yet, I can't help but feel..

Relief. Pure RELIEF.

A chapter of my life has been closed. Completed. A burden has been lifted off my broad, weary shoulders. Truly, I fail to recall the last time I've felt this relaxed. I welcome this long break.

Or more so, I NEED it.

It's not a mere desire of the heart, it has undoubtedly become, a necessity.

And so, I am ready,

To let go and to hold on.

To forget and to remember.

To simply, move on..

photo by Ho Han Yang